How to cope with breakup after a long term relationship?

I am 19, a student, and this is my first long term relationship. We met last year in August, believe me it was the best day of my life to have her.





Since we live very far apart, we only meet occasionally. We save up our vacation time and meet up with each other. I'd spend all my money (she would too) to go on a long vacation with her. We have met four times since August, in between trips we'd keep contact almost everyday by internet and phone. We think about each other constantly when we are not together, and we are so excited and happy to see each other every time we have a chance!





We are the type that always fights over little things and make up very soon after. She broke up with me 2 days ago, this time she said it's really over, since she felt sorry for her ex that lives in her area. She broke up with her ex for me last year, and her ex was her fiance. He was and is still very good to her, although I am too, she feels that her ex is her future, and she feels very sorry for her ex since she has been very mean to him. Basically, she feels sorry for him and she thinks she cope better with him thats why she left me.





The very painful part of this is she cried and broke up with me right in the middle of the vacation which I fully paid for (I worked extremely hard for the time and money to make it possible). She left me yesterday and my plane back home is not for another 5 days. During the last two days with her, she acted as she was disgusted of me or rather wanted to keep distance. She would be in a very bad mood all the time, yell at me for some small things. She didn't even want me to take her to the airport. Her last words when she went back home was ';I'm home, take care of yourself';.





We promised to keep in touch by e-mail.





It hurts to know that she left me for another man, she was texting him throughout our trip and seemed excited to see him again. It also hurts to know she would do such a mean thing to leave me here alone.





She was so happy when she saw me again, her attitude changed so fast, overnight she wanted to keep distance away from me. What could've made up her mind so fast? We were not just in a relationship, but best friends too. Losing her was losing a part of me, she was the most positive part of my life. I am stranded here away from my friends in a foreign world. I seriously don't know how to deal with this alone. I will also be facing some debt when I go back home.





I barely eat, and sleeps very little with a lot of wake ups in between. I don't know what to do, any advice?How to cope with breakup after a long term relationship?
If shes ok with doin you dirty like that, then I wonder what else shes been doing while yall were apart. The fact that she broke up on your vacation makes me wonder if she was just using you this whole time. If youre sure that she felt the same way about you as you did about her, then theres no way that she doesnt feel like an idiot right now. She should be feeling sorry for you and not her ex. But time will tell. Either shes gone forever and youll just learn to live without and hate her, or shell be back saying that it didnt work out with her ex after all. Just tell yourself you dont need her, youre a man.